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The one who sat on my lap and listened to bedtime stories first…is now officially a young man.

When did the Bob the Builder lunch bag, the Pokemon cards, and the high voice disappear?

I look up at him and the reality sinks in that his reliance on me and his dad is fleeting. Here in this moment, yet ever so translucent, like the cloud of air released by breath on a January day in Nebraska. Gone tomorrow.

I had to learn to let him go…from my lap, from the special reading spot, from the longer conversations, from his shared bedroom with his brother, from the extended hugs.

But I realized, only through letting him go, am I able to witness how far he is capable of soaring himself.

I feel in my heart that I did well even when my head starts to doubt.

Is he ready?
Will he get hurt?
Does he know I’ll never judge him?
That we all make mistakes?
That true love is hard?
Will he embrace his potential?
Without a shadow of doubt?
Will he remain humble?
Can I still hold his hand (when no one’s looking)?

The most ironic thing is that I still remember rocking him back and forth in his first bedroom with walls adorned in Noah’s arc stencils, the bunk beds, and the hard wood floors.

In that time and place when I was practically busting at the seams with his brother in my belly and having little room left on my lap, I worried and wondered as I turned the book pages, Will he be ok when he no longer has me for just himself?


The answer is a resounding YES. He is ok.

I, on the other hand, am only doing so-so.

Happy 14th birthday. Your dad and I are so very lucky to have been blessed with you and cannot wait to see what life has in store for you.

By now we’ve all heard the catchy tune, What does the fox say?

This video debuted in September and soon went viral wracking up nearly 270,000,000 hits on YouTube.

Then there’s this little phenomenon called vlogging (video + blogging). A young lady taking full advantage of this platform is Jenna Mourey, or more commonly known by her pseudonym, Jenna Marbles. Her YouTube channel has over 11 million subscribers.

Here’s a snippet of her work (disclaimer: a lot of her vlogs are not appropriate for those easily offended by bad language).

So, yeah, I guess that’s all the explanation I need to justify why I’m running with this impulsive idea to produce and upload a vlog of my thoughts on a weekly basis.

My goal is 20 views (baby steps) in a single week. Hell, maybe you might even want to subscribe to my channel? I know…I know…that’s crazy talk.

I’m not promising high tech, high quality stuff here. Just thoughts from a mom who doesn’t know how to remove those black boxes on both sides of her video window, or guarantee good audio, or understand her iPhone. I can tell you’re on the edge of your seat.

Without further ado…

And, yes, I asked you to vote for me. To translate mom-ese, that means like my video.