Archives For November 30, 1999

In the blurry days of summer, when light takes hold of dark

When kids grow faster than flowers, and memories make their mark

When you spend time treading water to keep your head afloat

And reflect on putting pen to paper or making mental note

The older you get the more you sit and watch your days unfold

It’s the same story from parent to child no greater truth will ever be told

You yearn to rewind and freeze time but know you never will

For humankind is simply powerless at making life stand still

Far too often we fail to recognize when all is good and right

When troubles are fairly minimal and we sleep peacefully at night

Our perceived hardships are quite trivial in the grand scheme of things

Surrounded by those who love us, true contentment family brings

Moments are like bubbles of time floating carelessly in the breeze

Both beautiful and fragile they move on as they please

You try relentlessly to catch them knowing in your heart you never will

For humankind is simply powerless at making life stand still

Before I was a mom of three, I never knew what it was like to raise a little girl. I never had to guess what mood any member of my family was in because, before I was a mom of three, we all pretty much knew how to read one another. I never realized how fun it was to paint little toe nails. It’s an experience far more enjoyable than painting my own.

Before I was a mom of two, I never thought it was possible to give my love and devotion to anyone other than my precious first-born son. Before I laid eyes on my second son, I never knew what it was like to have a cuddly boy whose sole existence, it seems, is to make sure his mom is happy. I never realized my heart could swell to the point of bursting until he showed me what it means to give without expecting anything in return.

Before I was a mom of one, I didn’t know it was possible to actually be in awe of a child. I knew parents could be proud, but to feel a sense of awe is different. Before my oldest even took in his first breath, I never knew that God could intentionally give us our children in the exact order we need them. To bless us with a confident kid who helps us along the way and serves as a role model during times when we fall short.

Before having three children, I had two dogs. One passed and left me wondering why on earth we allow ourselves to own pets only to see them die before us. The other reminds me daily why we make that choice and never regret doing so.

Before I was a mom, I was a wife. I loved my husband and took the time to show him. I soaked in his strength and felt protected. I told him I would stand by him even if we led each other astray. I put my faith in him and not once has he let me down. I’ve seen him positively guide and discipline not only our own kids, but other youth as well. I know he loves me and would do anything to make me happy.

Before my husband stole my heart, I was a student and an athlete. The minute I knew what it felt like to be recognized for being good, I never felt pressured to be bad. I was complimented for being a leader and I never took that responsibility for granted. If I can leave this earth knowing I’ve impacted someone’s life for the better, I will feel fulfilled at the end of my days.

Before I was a student and an athlete, I was a girl who was loved and supported by her family. I did not need to be surrounded by material things to know my life was rich. What I didn’t recognize then was that the collective sacrifices of so many would help shape the person I am today.

Who were you before the person you are now?

“People are balancing virtual and real-world relationships in the moment. Perhaps they need a constant sense of belonging and outside reinforcement to reinvigorate the here and now.” – The End of Businss as Usual by Brian Solis.

I’ve been blogging for years now. I started doing it as a hobby and then was fortunate to be chosen as a regular contributor for momaha.com. So, now I blog as both a hobby and a profession. Granted, I can’t quit my full-time job on my blogging salary. The extra income simply means I can buy a new outfit or get my hair done with little to no guilt now, which is nice.

When I think back as to why I started blogging in the first place, it honestly started as a creative outlet for me. It allowed me to document the craziness of raising three kids with my husband of 12 years. For a woman who detests scrap booking, it gave me confidence that my children would at least have something to look back upon when they’re older. And finally, the unexpected icing on the cake, it gave me a chance to connect with people.

No matter what a blogger’s niche is, I think we all share that desire: to connect with people. I don’t have to be able to relate to your lifestyle to find you interesting. In fact, I enjoy reading about people who are extremely different than me just as much as (if not more than) people who share my passions.

I’m fine with my here and now. In fact, I’m incredibly satisfied with nearly every aspect of my life. There’s something about sitting down at my laptop, though. I don’t need anyone’s approval before hitting the “publish” key. I can virtually escape without leaving the comfort of my home. I can imagine people who I’ve never met in person reading my words and nodding their head in agreement.

Despite the fact I haven’t stepped foot into a classroom in more than a decade, I continue to learn about fascinating people and the drive that motivates them. The lessons that bloggers provide can’t be found in a text book.

So, tonight, I challenge you to leave me a sentence or two in the comments section that define who you are. I’ll start: I am an evolutionary woman who refuses to put anything above my family. Living in Nebraska, I love experiencing the world outside of my own little bubble but I always yearn to return home at the end of every journey.